Blue, Gray, & Green
1 who reads this, I just needed you to know that I figured it out.
I know why I had thought my ex was so fake.
I know, regardless of what she would probably say now,
She was just trying to become part of my “reality”. Out of love.
And I feel so bad coming to this realization. Because I feel like I sent her off the path that she was SUPPOSED to travel. Re-direction. In the wrong direction. Further away from the person that she’s destined to be.
Meeting me may have been one of the worst things to happen in her life.
But I know that I wouldn’t be where I am right now if it weren’t for her.
I am thankful for her sacrifice, yet burdened by the guilt that I have from leading her astray…
But I have FAITH that she will find her RIGHT way.
1 WILL B3.
I will become. Although it may seem like it’s taking long, or nothing is happening, I feel it in my bones. FUCK THIS DOUBT. Because so far it’s gotten me nowhere. My crown is calling, & I’m yearning for my throne.